Thursday, 26 November 2009
Happy Thanksgiving?
Although I have no celebratory plans for this day (though I may do something on Saturday), it still has me thinking about what I am thankful for. In fact, being away from home today makes me MORE thankful for who I have in my life. Normally, family occasions can drive me a little batty. Cooking all the food is so much work, and then when people run late, other people get grumpy. Everyone in my family has their own idea of a schedule and what food should be cooked and who is responsible for what, etc. Therefore, stress always ensues.
However, now that I am not there, I even miss the stress. Instead of worrying about that stuff, I have to worry about a stupid paper and my stupid sprained ankle (a story for later). Plus, I don't even get the down time with family afterward. I get to sit here, by myself, and read about the dumb Middle Ages or play dumb computer games.
I know I can't complain too much. I'm in Oxford. It's wonderful. It's beautiful. It's amazing.
But, it would be a lot more amazing if I were surrounded by the people I love. I just got a phone call to go out to dinner with few students, but it won't be the same. It won't be THANKSGIVING dinner, and it won't be with my family. Even the Thanksgiving-esque dinner we might have on Saturday won't be the same. The food will make me happy (as it always does), but the company won't be perfect.
Last year I spent Thanksgiving at my aunt's house with all my crazy cousins, Josh and my mother. It's always an adventure over there, and last year was no exception. Back then I hadn't realized that this year my mom would be going over there alone, Josh would be with his family in Ava, and I would be here by myself. It's....odd.
Therefore, I am thankful for them the most. The two people that love me the most, and that I love the most. I know they both miss me and wish I was with them, and that helps. My mom called me and we talked for about an hour, because we missed each other. I don't know what I would do without her in my life. Josh and I had a great conversation last night, and it made me realize how long I have been gone. I'm thankful he is sticking by my side. Very thankful.
In ten days, though, I'll be home. Ten long and wonderful days. But, as soon as I get home my life will be crazy for about three weeks, and then I will turn around and come right back here.
I'm thankful for this experience, however. No matter how much drama occurs, or how much I miss home, I'm still thankful I got this chance. I know I will remember it forever, and I know it has/will effect me forever. But some days I still wish I could go home at the end of the day.
A list of other things/people I am thankful for:
-Charli Anderson: my best friend forever, I have no doubt about that
-Karen Anderson: You are my partner in crime here in Oxford, and I don't know what I would do without you
-Oxford: God you are beautiful
-My grandpa: Stay stubborn and living, old man
-My godparents
-Being healthy (well, mostly lol)
-Being alive
Happy Thanksgiving everyone. Sorry if this post was ridiculous.
Thursday, 19 November 2009
Quickly, Quickly
Well, it has been almost two weeks since I last posted. I am sorry for all the delays, but since a lot of other bloggers have been behind, I don't feel as bad.
When I last left you, I was about to go to a Guy Fawkes Day celebration at South Parks, Oxford. They had a whole carnival set up, and it was quite lovely, and reminded me a lot of home. Joe and I did not ride any carnival rides (and neither should you), because carnival rides are scary and unsafe. We, instead, began following another part of the crowd towards a big...thing. It was a statue of a cross between a man and a tree, and looked to be made of cardboard. It took us about 15 minutes to realize this thing was probably Guy Fawkes, and that they were going to light it on fire.
And it indeed was lit on fire. After an impressive fireworks display (which was 30 minutes late), Guy Fawkes was burnt. The statue and a pile of cardboard behind it lit up in a giant mass of fire. It was rather epic.
Last weekend (it's almost the weekend again already, isn't it? Dear Lord), some of the Jewell kids studying at Cambridge came to Oxford to visit. Stephanie stayed at my house, and it was a lovely time. We booth had papers to write, so we did work in separate rooms. Even with us being in different rooms a lot of the time, her visit was quite refreshing. It was nice to see a fresh and loving face. It's what I have been missing most. It was fun to see everyone else too. I hadn't realized how long it had been since I had seen everyone.
Tutorials have been going alright. The papers have been kicking my butt, but my tutors seem to still like them, so I can't complain too heavily. My Medieval History tutorial is much more difficult than my music tutorial. I write the papers fine, but when Patrick begins asking me questions, I don't have the answers. I don't always look at the big picture, and sometimes I just missed researching a certain thing in-depth. I have been trying to step it up, but he always manages to find something I don't know...and ask me about it.
There isn't anything else major happening. Went to Stratford again to see another Shakespeare play. It was good, but I was very ill, so I zoned out a lot. Also went to Hertford College Formal Hall, but I will discuss this more in a separate post later.
On Saturday, Karen, her sister, and I are going to Canterbury!!! So, I will let you know how it is. It will be my first un-sponsored trip outside of Oxford, and I cannot wait. I am so very PUMPED. It is one of the places I have always wanted to go. I'll keep in touch!
Things I am currently missing/craving: A really good hug, a letter from home
Things that have been acquired: A fresh face, more kitty loving (my tutor has a cat), food like I have at home (Karen made chili that tasted almost just like my mom's)
Friday, 6 November 2009
One Month
It has been a tad too long since I have posted. However, today I have no urge to do work, and would rather drown myself in watching live videos of Evanescence's latest show and obsessing about their emergence once again. So why not blog as well?
Life the past few weeks has sped up to a rapid speed and only recently have I been able to sit down and soak it all in. I have had three tutorials, three papers, one and half holidays, lots of choir, a lecture and a theatre trip to London since I last posted. AH! Life has no intention of slowing down any time either. Next week shows another lecture, paper and tutorial, a theatre trip to Stratford and Formal Hall at Hertford. And then the Cambridge folk are coming. Then I might go to Brighton, as well as going to Canterbury on the 21st! Mixed in with all of that is more tutorials, random meetings, weekly Evensong, papers and day-to-day excitement! Ahhh!
Needless to say this last month of term is sure to go by quickly. But, I am kind of excited to go home. I need to see the fresh, welcoming faces of the people I love. I love Oxford. Every day I do and see something totally beautiful and exciting. But I also my support structure. I miss being able to go “home.” I was talking to a friend of mine who is also abroad the other day. And he agreed that we wished being in another country was like summer camp. During the day and evening you get to go out and do and see crazy awesome things, but then you get to come home at night and sleep in your warm bed next to the person to love. But, that wouldn't be enjoying the abroad experience, now would it? Part of the experience is living it 24/7. What have I learned from that? I'm not sure yet, but I know I have got to learn something.
Now, about what I have been up to.
Tutorials: My tutorials have been going fairly well. My major tutor always seems to enjoy my papers, but as I don't ever get a grade, I have no idea how I am doing in that regard. He always calls them “good” or “excellent,” so I am hoping that means they are pretty good. My minor tutorial is a little more difficult, because I never seem to make the right connections. My essays are nice and they answer the questions, but the verbal questions I have a harder time with. It seems I need to improve my verbal discussions of things, as these last two years have developed my written discussion only.
Halloween: I didn't do a whole lot. I handed out candy to trick-or-treaters. Penelope told me that some years the Brits do not get very involved, so not to be too disappointed if no one shows up. Well, this year was not one of those years. I had about 40 children (I know because they took all my candy) come to the door in various different outfits. They were all your typical Halloween outfits: ghosts, witches, zombies (including one really cool girl), Star Wars characters, princesses, pirates, etc. The children were also all different ages, ranging from little blokes in toddlers to the ever-annoying middle schoolers (they are annoying in every country). After I ran out of candy, I went to Faulkner house. I made attempts to convince everyone to go out to a pub, but we never made it. Instead people were loud and drunken in the house, and I left after about two hours.
Guy Fawkes Day: This is what I am calling the “half” holiday. Yesterday was Guy Fawkes Day (Look up Guy Fawkes if you are confused), the British form of Independence Day. I did not do much for it yesterday, except watch fireworks from my garden. However, tomorrow I am planning on going to a fireworks display/mini-carnival in honor of the holiday, so I will let you know how it is later.
Choir: It's good.
Lecture/Theatre trip: We went to see An Inspector Calls on Wednesday, and it was FANTASTIC. The stage design and direction was epic, and it made me miss theatre. Nothing in high school was as epic as professional theatre, but it was epic at the time, and for the budget we had. The plot of the play really got me thinking, but mostly I was obsessed with the set. That is how it always is for me: I look at the technical stuff as opposed to obsessing over the acting.
I promise to update again soon with more information about my life and what I am thinking!
Things I am currently missing/craving: Xbox, letters from home
Things that have been acquired: Practice time, the most amazing BLT of my life, a breakfast sandwich from McDonalds